When Fierce Compassion Meets Tear Gas: The Ridglan Beagle Rescue

A few weeks ago, I stood in a trench filled with manure while tear gas canisters flew over my head… trying to help save beagles from a breeding facility in Wisconsin.

If you had told me a year ago that I would be dodging rubber bullets in an attempt to rescue dogs bred for research, I’m not sure I would have believed you.

And yet here we are.

The last several weeks have been an absolute whirlwind, and I’m still processing everything that transpired, but I want to share at least part of the story with you…

And let’s start with the happy news:

rescued Ridglan Farms beagles

As of today, 1,000 beagles from Ridglan Farms have been released, and another 500 are being released over the next couple of days.

I had the honor of helping with the evacuation.

As many of you know from following me on social media, I was a team leader for what became the largest mass open rescue effort in history — the attempt to free the beagles trapped inside Ridglan Farms in Wisconsin on April 18th.

And before I go any further, I want to say this:

The vast majority of us who showed up that day were ordinary people.

Teachers. Veterans. Students. Parents. Animal lovers.

People who simply reached a point where looking away no longer felt acceptable.

People who believed that if innocent beings were suffering behind those walls, someone should do something.

I won’t go into every detail, but as trained and prepared as we thought we were… nothing could have prepared us for the level of violence we were met with by law enforcement that day.

When we arrived at the facility, I was one of the first on the scene with my super fit team. Our responsibility was to move the massive hay bale barriers that had been set up around the property.

Nonviolent animal advocated pepper sprayed

We waded through trenches filled with manure (yup, Ridglan spent big bucks on literal booby traps), and as we approached the hay bales, the tear gas canisters started flying.

The first canister hit, and when I inhaled it, I truly felt like I was suffocating.

In that moment, every carefully prepared plan went out the window.

There were somewhere between 600 and 1,000 of us there that morning.

Many people were injured by law enforcement, who were protecting the interests of an animal-abusing corporation instead of protecting the innocent victims trapped inside those walls… the dogs.

My friend and co-lead, Christy — an Army veteran — agreed when I told her it felt like a war zone.

And honestly… it did.

There’s something deeply revealing about a society that responds to people trying to carry beagles to safety with tear gas and rubber bullets… while calling the cages and experiments happening behind those walls “science.”

Without going into too much detail, I can tell you that everyone I spoke with who was there agreed on one thing:

The physical pain from the tear gas, pepper spray, and rubber bullets was nothing compared to the emotional pain of walking away that day without beagles in our arms.

beagles inside Ridglan Farms

And even that pain was nothing compared to what those dogs endure.

The cages.
The isolation.
The fear.
The experiments.

In the days and weeks that followed, I buried myself in the ongoing efforts to ride the momentum of the attention we had gained.

There were press conferences, protests, sit-ins outside the jail (many of us had been arrested), and demonstrations at the Wisconsin State Capitol.

I helped heavily behind the scenes with media efforts — trying to make sure our side of the story was heard far and wide, while encouraging people to pressure public officials to enforce the animal cruelty laws and free these dogs.

And then, less than two weeks later, I was back in Miami, leaving a client’s place when I got the call…

The negotiations that had been ongoing with a large rescue organization had finally gone through.

1,500 of the dogs trapped inside that hellhole…

were going to be released!

The wave of emotion that came over me in that moment is honestly indescribable.Ella Featured on Unchained TV about the Ridglan Beagle Rescue

Was it ideal that money was exchanged for their freedom?

No. Of course not.

The authorities should have enforced the law and evacuated those dogs themselves long ago.

But at the same time…

1,500 precious souls are being saved.

And the truth is: it took all of us.

It took whistleblowers.

It took organizations like Dane4Dogs, who had been fighting for these dogs for over a decade.

It took the leadership of Wayne Hsiung and Direct Action Everywhere.

It took rescue organizations willing to negotiate and fund a deal.

It took media attention.

It took public outrage.

It took pressure campaigns, protests, lawsuits, calls, tears, courage, and persistence.

It took ordinary people willing to put themselves in harm’s way because their conscience told them they couldn’t stay silent anymore.

It took all of it.

And when I had the opportunity to return to Wisconsin last week to help with the evacuation efforts…

I jumped on it immediately.

And this time…

Rescued beagle in Ella's arms

I got to carry dogs to freedom.

Hundreds of them.

I got to look into the eyes of beagles touching grass for the very first time.

I got to kiss trembling little faces and gently reassure them that they were finally safe.

One little beagle buried her face into my chest and completely melted when I scratched behind her ears, and it hit me all at once that this may have been the first moment of tenderness she had ever experienced.

I don’t think I’ll ever forget that.

This whole experience has changed me in the best way possible.

As exhausting and emotionally intense as parts of it have been, it has also energized me, brought deeper meaning to my life, and reconnected me to my purpose in a way I can barely put into words.

Talk about soul-aligned.

And I think one of the biggest lessons I’m taking from all of this is that compassion is not passive.

Real compassion is fierce.

Sometimes compassion looks soft and nurturing.

And sometimes compassion looks like standing in front of cages and refusing to pretend what’s happening inside them is acceptable.

At this point, roughly 500 dogs still remain inside the facility.

These dogs are under contract, meaning they have already been designated for experimentation.

Ridglan Farms is losing its breeding-for-sale license on July 1st, but incredibly, they still hold a research license — meaning they could potentially continue breeding and experimenting on dogs.

Which is absolutely insane in 2026.

Especially considering that roughly 95% of animal testing data fails to translate to humans anyway.

This outdated and cruel practice continues largely because there is money to be made.

And it needs to end.

While I can’t share everything happening behind the scenes right now, I can tell you there are many people working tirelessly to save the remaining dogs and shut Ridglan down for good.

And we’re not stopping there.

Campaigns are already being strategized to target even larger corporations involved in breeding animals for experimentation.

Because this isn’t just about one facility.

It’s about questioning what we’ve been conditioned to accept as “normal.”

I have never been more convinced that ordinary people, acting from a place of love, can change the course of history.

I saw it with my own eyes.

And I think that’s exactly why systems built on cruelty work so hard to convince us we’re powerless.

But we’re not.

Not when we refuse to look away.

If you’d like to learn more or help support the ongoing efforts to shut Ridglan down for good and help end cruel animal experimentation, I invite you to visit SaveTheDogs.io and check out this list of actions you can take today to help make animal experimentation a thing of the past.

And if this story moved you, please share it!

With fierce compassion,
Ella

Closing Out 2025 with Intention, Peace & a Little Fire

inner peace and intention

Is it just me… or did 2025 absolutely fly by?

As we close out this final newsletter of the year, I wanted to share a few reflections — what this past year taught me, how I’m approaching the new year, and the deeper shifts that have quietly (and powerfully) changed everything.

My intention with sharing is always to help spark inspiration for you.

2025 was a year of massive growth for me.

And here’s the twist: that growth came not from pushing harder… but from learning how to let go.

I’m a go-getter by nature. A doer. A hustler.
I’ve spent most of my life believing that if I just worked harder, tried more, pushed further — I’d fulfill my purpose.

And for me, that purpose has always been clear: to stand for animals, to live and teach fierce compassion, and to help shift this world toward more consciousness and care.

That part hasn’t changed.

But the HOW is evolving.

And honestly? I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up — and I’m finally okay with that!

A few years ago, the endless hustling caught up with me in a big way. Total burnout. Insomnia. Deep questioning.

(I share this very openly in my blog post Burn-Out, Insomnia, Psychedelics & More — which ultimately led me to Peru for a 12-day ayahuasca journey.)

Truthfully… I haven’t fully “bounced back.”

And maybe I wasn’t meant to.

Last year in Lake Atitlán, Guatemala, during yoga teacher training, I met with an Ayurvedic practitioner who gently (and clearly) told me my yang energy was running the show — and it was time to deeply nourish my yin.

That single conversation changed my trajectory.

It led me to Tai Chi.
Which led me to Sifu Fred.
Which led me to Sifu Lester.
Which led me to a daily morning meditation practice with an incredible community.

So 2025 became the year I committed to:

• Tai Chi Chuan (4–6 hours per week)
• Daily meditation (5:45 AM every morning)
• Regular yoga practice
• Slowing down — on purpose

Now let’s be real… I’m still very much me 😄…
I didn’t give up calisthenics, strength training, primal movement, or boxing.

But for the first time, I prioritized the meditative practices — because I no longer wanted to live in that familiar insanity of doing the same things over and over and expecting different results.

And because life loves irony…

In the middle of all this focus on softness, I re-tore my ACL sparring Muay Thai in Tulum🤦‍♀️…
Went through ACL reconstruction surgery…
And rehabbed my way back to full function in just six months.

Yep. That happened too.

Which brings me to how I’m choosing to live as I step into 2026.

I’m not setting goals.
I’m not making resolutions per say.

I’m choosing a way of being.

I’m choosing to embody peace.
To embody love.
To embody abundance.

I’m trusting that as my state of being shifts, the outer world will continue to respond accordingly.

And I’m letting the Universe decide what this looks like in form — opportunities, projects, relationships — based on my state of being.

Boom 💥
That feels deeply, undeniably soul-aligned.

If you’ve made it this far and feel called to reflect…
I’d love to hear what you are leaning into for 2026.

Not goals per say — but mindset shifts.
Ways of being.
What peace, love, or abundance looks like for you.

If this resonates, make sure you’re signed up to receive the Soul-Aligned Sunday Newsletter here.💛

With fierce compassion and a whole lot of gratitude,
Ella ✨

How to Stay Aligned with Your Eating Through the Holidays (Without Falling Into the Food Guilt Spiral)

If the holidays tend to stir up stress, anxiety, or that old familiar “I can’t trust myself around food” feeling… this one’s for you.

I spent YEARS dreading the holiday season — not because I don’t love the lights, the traditions, the connection — but because I was terrified of losing control around food. Every November, I swore this would be the year I didn’t overeat, didn’t gain weight, didn’t roll into January feeling heavier, ashamed, and frustrated with myself.

And every year… the same thing happened.

I’d go in with the best intentions, end up in the “screw it, I already blew it” spiral, and spend weeks mentally beating myself up.

Thankfully, those days are behind me. After more than a decade of healing my own relationship with food — and coaching hundreds of others to do the same — I can honestly say the holidays no longer feel like a battle.

And I want to help you experience that shift too.

Below are some of the mindset shifts and practical tools I teach my clients, and am sharing in video format inside the VEGAN SQUAD COMMUNITY, a space where plant-forward humans interested in becoming the fittest, most holistically healthy humans they can be, come together to learn, grow, and support one another. 

>> I invite you to scoop up your 1-Week FREE trial membership within this awesome community! <<

These aren’t quick fixes, but they will absolutely help you move into the holidays with more peace, more power, and a whole lot more self-trust.

And if you’re looking for 1:1 coaching, you can check out my coaching offers and reach out to me HERE.

1. Reframe the Holidays Before You Walk Into Them

There’s nothing magical about holiday food.

Food is just… food.

What changes is the story we attach to it — the traditions, expectations, pressure, family dynamics, nostalgia, and emotional weight that all get mixed in.

Instead of labeling foods (or yourself) as “good” or “bad,” try asking yourself these two questions before you head into a gathering:

✨ How do I want to feel at the end of this night?

Not just physically — but emotionally, energetically, spiritually.

✨ What choices would I make if I truly respected and loved my body?

This isn’t woo. It’s self-compassion.

When you’re anchored into how you want to feel, your choices naturally shift.

2. Step Out of Autopilot With the Power Pause

Most overeating happens simply because we’re checked out — acting on habit loops rather than conscious choice.

Before you take a bite, try this:

  • Inhale for 3
  • Exhale for 6 (this activates “rest & digest” mode)
  • Ask:
    “What choice aligns with the version of me I’m becoming?”

This 10-second pause is a game changer.

3. Mindful Eating (Yes, It Matters More Than You Think)

If there’s ONE practice that transformed my relationship with holiday food, it’s this one.

Eat slowly. 

Chew each bite thoroughly — to a paste (I know, it sounds gross, but trust me, it’s worth it). I’m talking 30ish chews.

Mindful eating will:

  • Slow you down
  • Activate digestion (pre-digestion begins with the enzymes in your saliva that are activated when you chew)
  • Help you recognize your satiety signals and feel satisfied sooner
  • Reduce overeating by about 20%
  • Let you actually enjoy the foods you love

Use all your senses.
Look at your food. Smell it. Notice its textures. Experience every bite fully.

If you’re going to enjoy your favorite holiday treat, be present with it — don’t inhale it while standing over the counter stressed out.

4. Start Your Day in Alignment

Instead of saving up calories (which backfires every time), nourish your body early.

A couple ideas:

  • A nutrient-packed green vegetable juice
  • A smoothie loaded with greens
  • A balanced, plant-exclusive meal with plenty of fiber and plant-protein

When I start my day with something that makes my body feel good, it sets the tone for everything else.

Avoid skipping meals. Showing up ravenous to a big holiday dinner is a recipe for feeling out of control.

5. Drink Water Before the Meal

This is so simple it’s easy to ignore, but it works.

A big glass of water 10 minutes before a meal helps you:

  • Slow down
  • Tune into your true hunger cues (sometimes a need for hydration can be confused with a need for food)
  • Feel more grounded and in your body

6. Stop at “Satisfied,” Not Stuffed

Aim for about 80% fullness — the point where you feel good, but not weighed down.

You’ll reach true fullness about 20 minutes later.

This becomes much easier when you eat slowly and stay connected to your body.

7. And If You “Blow It”? (Because You’re Human)

Listen… this WILL happen. Especially in the beginning.

The goal isn’t perfection — it’s pattern interruption.

Instead of spiraling into:

“Ugh, I blew it. Might as well keep going.”

Try:

“Okay. That wasn’t the plan. I’m human. And I get to start fresh in this moment.”

Self-compassion is not letting yourself off the hook — it’s creating the internal safety you need to get back into alignment.

One moment doesn’t ruin your progress.
One choice doesn’t define you.
One meal does not carry the power your mind gives it.

8. Replace Guilt With Gratitude (Ultimate Pattern Breaker)

Guilt and gratitude cannot coexist.

So when guilt creeps in:

  • Pause
  • Breath
  • Shift to gratitude

Gratitude for your body.
Gratitude for the people around you.
Gratitude for the privilege of having food.
Gratitude for the chance to practice self-trust.

This is one of the fastest ways to get back into your heart — and out of the guilt cycle.

Final Thoughts

You are not alone in this.
Holiday eating stress is incredibly common, especially among those of us who’ve struggled with emotional eating, overeating, or chronic dieting.

These patterns can feel deeply ingrained… but they are shiftable.

Remember:

Your body deserves your love, not punishment.
You’re allowed to enjoy holiday foods and stay aligned.
Every moment is a fresh moment to choose differently.
You don’t have to navigate this alone — we’re in your corner.

And if you want a deeper dive into cravings and self-coaching, I’ll be hosting a full masterclass in January. That’s where we’ll go step-by-step through my PEACE Process for navigating cravings without willpower battles.

But for now… breathe, slow down, stay present, and choose the version of you that you’re becoming.

You’ve got this. 💛

From Hustle to Harmony: My Top 5 Energy-Shifting Practices Right Now

Ella Magers flow state

The Universe works in mysterious ways – Know what I mean?

A few weeks ago I made a huge decision…

For the next six weeks I would simply (not to be confused with easily) stop trying so hard for the first time in my entire life…

I vowed to…

  • reduce my constant push to “do” and focus primarily on “being…”
  • prioritize meditation and my tai chi practice with the intention of increasing the flow and frequency of my energy…
  • minimize screen time, computer work, and social media…

And can you believe that in a matter of 2 weeks, my schedule filled up with amazing personal training and coaching clients whom I genuinely love working with?

AND

I feel lighter and less stressed than I have in… honestly, as long as I can remember.

So I thought I’d share a few of the ways I’ve been shifting my energy, in case you’re craving a reset too.

🌅Meditation Every Morning 

I meet with Sifu Lester and other members of his Patreon, every morning at 5:45 on Google Meet for silent meditation practice.

I alternate between standing and seated meditation. 

I started with 15 minutes, and am increasing the time by 1 minute each week. 

Non-moving meditation has been the most difficult thing for me to stay consistent with, so having a group for accountability has been a game changer!

I have a 20-minute stretch, mobility, and qi gong routine that I also do every morning, before or after meditation.  Make sure you’re subscribed  

☯️Doubling Down on Tai Chi Practice

I train tai chi chuan at least 4 times a week, some days with Sifu Fred in person, and some days with Sifu Lester virtually. I am noticing significant changes in how grounded I feel, how open and aligned my body is becoming, and how much more focused and calm my mind is. 

 

🥦Whole Foods-Based, Plant-Exclusive Fuel

This is certainly not new for me – it’s been part of my lifestyle for decades – but I of course wanted to mention it, because it plays a monumental role in our health on every level…. Not only for our physical health, but for our spiritual health (there’s something magical about moving through the world knowing you’re doing your very best to do the least harm and most good considering all living creatures). 

It’s pretty awesome that every time we eat, we have the opportunity to make a positive impact on our own health and the health of other people, animals, and the planet.

I start my morning with LiveUltimate’s Ultimate Elixir, and I highly recommend everyone give it a try. I’ve been using it for years, as have many of my clients. Learn more and get a huge discount HERE.    

 

🧘‍♀️Listening to My Body

I’m 8 weeks post ACL reconstruction surgery now, and I’m literally over a month “ahead of schedule” in terms of the recovery protocol. 

My physical therapist even said it’s the fastest recovery he’s seen (not that it’s a race😜). I’m back doing all my animal locomotives and well on my way to regaining my leg strength. I even ran this morning for short intervals while out with Fiona! 

That said, I’ve been experiencing more achiness and joint pain throughout my body than usual some days. 

So instead of pushing through like I usually would, I’ve been honoring that. Like last weekend, I skipped training at Muscle Beach and did yoga instead.

I also got my annual bloodwork done to make sure everything’s in check.

So for now, I’m flowing with what my body tells me:

  • When it says “Go for it!” I train calisthenics and strength.
  • When it says “Not today,” I focus on yoga, mobility, and flexibility.

Spending time in Nature, and with Family and Friends

I feel beyond lucky to live by the ocean—and I’ve been soaking it in even more lately. It feels like pure medicine for my soul.

And even though Fiona’s not a big fan of the water, she’s a good sport about going in with me, and then does sprints in the sand like the little athlete she is! 🐾

I also:

  • Attended the friends & family opening of Love Life Café
  • Led a squat challenge at Vegan Block Party
  • Spent more quality time with my sister, nieces, and nephew than I have in a long time (my heart is full)

 

Oh—and speaking of family: I took my mom for her hip replacement surgery, and three weeks out she’s already walking 30 minutes every morning like the badass she is.. She’s crushing her recovery!

 

So with all that said…

I hope this gives you a little spark of inspiration to tune inward and find your own rhythm of self-care and alignment—whatever that looks like for you right now.

Turning 45: A Raw Reflection on Healing, Strength, and Whole-Person Evolution

birthday reflection

Tomorrow I turn 45 and begin my 46th trip around the sun! 

Wow, I can hardly believe I’m officially in my mid-40’s, and I’m guessing, whatever age you are, you can relate when I say that with each passing year, time seems to speed up a bit. 

That said, I feel like the rate at which I’m evolving and gaining wisdom is speeding up with each passing year as well, which is pretty freakin’ awesome. 

Plus, even though I’m in recovery-mode from this ACL surgery, I truly feel like I’m in the best physical shape, and BY FAR the best mental and emotional shape of my adult life. 

This is me the week before surgery (a big thank you to Fred Holt for capturing the essence of ME so well!)…

And because some of you reading this don’t know me very well, and others may be interested in an update, I want to take a moment to (re)introduce myself and let you know what I’m up to professionally that lights me up

I’m always playing with my “title,” but for today at least, I’m calling myself a plant-powered food freedom and fitness coach who helps people across the globe break free from toxic diet culture, rewire self-sabotaging patterns, and build fiercely strong, fit, healthy bodies they love living in.

I work with people who’ve spent years stuck in self-sabotaging patterns. 

Many people I work with have been on and off diets their whole lives, have exhausted themselves trying countless workout programs, and are tired of living on the edge of burnout. 

That’s where I come in.

What sets me apart is that I don’t just coach just for external results or just for internal results—I coach for a whole-person evolution, which absolutely leads to long-term body recomposition (gaining lean muscle and losing body fat) as well.

My coaching combines mindset reprogramming, movement as medicine, plant-strong nutrition, and emotional healing. 

We use movement to not only sculpt bodies, but to shift energy, rewire thought patterns, and reconnect with your inner power. 

I pull from my background in martial arts, yoga, primal movement patterns, and functional strength training to create a unique, multi-dimensional training method that evolves with each client.

And right now, I’m fired up about bringing conversations with other experts to the public through my newest project, the Evolution of Fitness with Ella YouTube Live show. 

It’s a space where strength meets soul—where we dive into real, raw, and often hilarious conversations about movement, mindset, recovery, nutrition, injury, burnout, and what it really means to become fit for life – inside and out. 

I’ve always had a passion for hosting and podcasting, and this show has given me a platform to connect with brilliant minds, badass athletes, and everyday warriors who are challenging the status quo of the fitness industry.

I’m most proud of the way I’ve taken my own struggles in my “past life”— from disordered eating to debilitating depression, body dysmorphia, and toxic relationships—and turned them into fuel for purpose

Becoming a vegetarian at the age of seven, and vegan at the age of fifteen sparked my journey, but it was going through my own darkness that truly shaped me into the coach and creator I am today.

It’s been quite an adventure, and as painful as much of my life has been, I wouldn’t change a thing. 

Every challenge I’ve faced has deepened my capacity to lead with fierce compassion

Healing isn’t linear, growth happens in waves, and fitness isn’t one-size-fits-all. 

The goal isn’t perfection—it’s alignment. It’s honoring your values while creating a strong, healthy, energized body you can feel at home in.

What I want you to know is this: You’re not broken. You don’t need another diet or more willpower. You need a new framework—and a support system that inspires your evolution. 

The brand, Sexy Fit Vegan®, that I created in 2013 is all about ditching shame, stepping into your power, and choosing compassion, both for yourself, and for all life on this planet.

Whether I’m coaching or training one-on-one, guiding a group through my Food Freedom Blueprint, or sparking powerful conversations through my show, my mission stays the same: to help people evolve in every sense of the word—and to have a damn good time doing it.

So there you go! 

Strength in the Setback: My ACL Injury, Radical Acceptance, and the Power of ‘AND’

acl re-tear

I was reminded this past week that the Universe often gives us what we need, not necessarily what we want… and I’m doing my best to embrace that reality after what happened last Saturday.

It was my first full day in Tulum, Mexico.

I had traveled there to spend time with my dear friend, Allison Melody (host of the Food Heals podcast), with plans for a week full of both work and play.

The play I was most looking forward to? Training at a badass outdoor Muay Thai gym.👊

It’s been 8 months since I had ACL reconstruction surgery, and I was heading into this trip feeling strong, mobile, and ready to—what they say in physical therapy—“return to sport.”

I brought all my gear… wraps, gloves, shin guards, mouthpiece… with the intention of training at Revolution Muay Thai daily.

I was also excited to dive into yoga (Tulum has no shortage of gorgeous studios), and to continue my taiji practice in the magical outdoor spaces there.

But the Universe had different plans.

I noticed that the only class available at Revolution that Saturday was a sparring class.

I debated.

This would be my first time sparring Muay Thai again since surgery.

Ideally, I’d ease back in with a skills-based class—bag work, light partner drills. But I was so eager, so excited to be back in my element, that I decided to go for it.

Saturday morning, I arrived at the gym and was greeted with a warm welcome from Magnus, the owner and head coach, and a crew of incredibly talented fighters. After warming up, it was time to spar.

Fourth round. I was paired with a highly skilled woman—the only other female there.

I threw a kick with my right leg. She caught it.

As I pulled away, my body turned—and my standing knee (yep, the surgical one) twisted.

POP.💥

I hit the ground, writhing in pain, yelling “Fck, fck, f*ck”—because the moment mirrored what happened the first time I tore my ACL sparring in Miami.
Only this time I caught it on camera.

After the shock and pain subsided, I waited for the class to be over and Magnus graciously gave me a ride back to my Airbnb.

I of course had waves of emotion the rest of the day—conversations with myself, challenging thoughts of regret, doing my best not to spiral into self-blame.

What’s wild is that in the mastermind I’m currently leading for past clients, our mindset theme of the month is “Positive Thinking” (I actually recommended the episode “Positive Thinking My Ass” from the Vegan Life Coach Podcast to them—it’s a good one 😉).

There’s such a fascinating dance between toxic positivity, the idea that we create our reality with our thoughts and energy, and the power of simply allowing ourselves the full human experience—including the so-called “negative” emotions.

(I’ve written about this topic a lot on my blog if you want to dive deeper.)

For me, what’s been most healing in moments like this is embracing the mantra:

“The goal is not to feel better—it’s to get better at feeling.”

And so, after some internal pep talks, chats with Fred, my mom, and trusted friends, and breathing through disappointment, I made the call to head back to Miami early and get an MRI.

I’m admittedly bracing for the worst (my intuition says my ACL is re-torn) while being open to the possibility that it’s more minor than that.

I’m also already exploring ideas about how I can make the most of this injury, like creating special yoga, strength, and mobility classes online for people who are dealing with knee injuries.

More updates to come!

AND

I still was able to have some fun with Allison in the days following the incident. Here are some pics…

 

 

I’ll leave you with this…

Whether it’s an injury, a breakup, a setback in your health journey, or a moment that leaves you on the floor (literally or metaphorically), one of the most empowering things we can do is allow it all to be there.

We live in a world that often tells us it has to be either/or…

Either you’re strong, or you’re struggling.
Either you’re grateful, or you’re grieving.
Either you’re positive, or you’re pessimistic.

But the truth is—and this is something I come back to again and again on my healing journey—it’s not either/or. It’s both/and.

You can be deeply disappointed and profoundly grateful.
You can feel sadness and still embody peace.
You can grieve the setback and trust the process.
You can fall apart and stay grounded in your worth.

This is the paradox of being human. And it’s also where the magic lives.

As Tara Brach says, “Radical acceptance is the willingness to experience ourselves and our lives as it is.” It’s not about fixing or escaping what we feel. It’s about expanding our capacity to hold it all—with compassion, curiosity, and presence.

Ram Dass puts it beautifully too: “Suffering is part of our training program for becoming wise.”

So if you’re navigating your own version of a pop💥… I invite you to breathe into the AND.

Let your joy and pain coexist. Let your strength and softness dance together. Let your inner warrior cry and keep showing up with an open heart.

And know this: I’m right here with you, doing the same.

With fierce compassion and a whole lotta love,
Ella 💗

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Travel, Tai Chi, and Lessons About Replacing Force with Flow

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Right now, I’m writing this from Miami International Airport, sipping on a matcha latte with soy milk (I managed to find one with unsweetened organic soy… WINNING!).😋

I’m headed to Tulum, Mexico for the week to visit my dear friend and soul-sister, Allison Melody (you may know her from the Food Heals Podcast). She’s living and working there for a few months.

I’m super exited that I found a badass outdoor Muay Thai gym that I plan to train at all week (I think my knee is ready now as I’m headed into month 8 post-op surgery and feel strong and mobile!).

I’ll also be doing a bunch of yoga, while continuing to work with my virtual coaching and personal training clients. (Expect a full Tulum download in next week’s email.)

Leaving Fiona is always the hardest part—she’s such a bundle of love in a small package!

Knowing she’s in good hands with my mom certainly makes the goodbye a little easier. 🐾💗

After so many years of traveling while staying true to my vegan lifestyle and movement practices, I feel like I’ve really cracked the code on how to stay aligned while on the go.

If you’ve got any travel plans coming up—whether it’s spring break, a long weekend, or a summer adventure—I’d love to support you in staying centered and strong while you explore, so I wrote a blog post that shares my favorite tips to help you feel your best wherever you roam.

Remember, alignment isn’t about rigidity—it’s about self-awareness, using compassion as your compass (for both yourself and others), and staying connected to your deep, meaningful “why.”

 

My Taiji Journey Continues

In case you missed it, I’ve been diving deep into the internal art of tai chi (taiji) since December.

It started as a prescription, really—after an Ayurvedic consultation revealed that my vata dosha (air element) is out of balance. No surprise there… I’ve been dealing with insomnia for over 20 years.

The recommendation?

Grounding practices.

So, I committed to taiji a few hours a week under the guidance of Sifu Fred Holt (@trainkungfu)—and let me tell you, it was not love at first stance.

At first, the slow, deliberate movements felt… well… borderline torturous. 😅

But I approached it the way I do with anything I’ve committed to that will uplevel my health holistically: with curiosity, compassion, and discipline (you can read about my take on discipline in this blog post).

And before long something shifted.

Bit by bit, week by week, I started to crave the practice. What began as two sessions a week has become nearly a daily ritual.

I believe it’s medicine for both my nervous system and my soul.

 

Lessons from Push-Hands (and Life)

Last weekend, I road-tripped with Fred and fellow student Peter to Lakeland, Florida for a Push-Hands retreat hosted by the Tampa Bay Martial Arts Group.

If you’ve never heard of push-hands, it’s a partner practice within taiji that teaches you to stay grounded, relaxed, and responsive—even when someone’s literally trying to throw you off balance.

I’ve only been practicing push hands for about 6 weeks, while many people at the retreat had decades of experience.

And although I managed to push some people, I often felt like a dead leaf caught in the wind as I was tossed around with ease by partners whose grounded power felt both humbling and awe-inspiring… A reminder of what’s possible when energy, strength, and presence are fully embodied and connected.

The big takeaway?

🌱 True strength doesn’t come from resisting or forcing—it comes from learning how to flow, to connect and work with energy, to expand, and to respond calmly and with purpose.

Whether you’re on a path of healing, traveling somewhere new, or just trying to stay rooted in your day-to-day routine, I hope this serves as a reminder that slowing down, leaning in, and choosing presence over perfection is a powerful path forward.

P.S. If you’ve been curious about starting a grounding practice like tai chi or want help staying aligned with food and fitness during travel or transition, hit reply—I’d love to hear what you’re working on or moving through. 💌

The Highs, the Lows, and Finding Peace in the Pause

It’s been 6 months since my ACL reconstruction surgery, and let me tell you, healing is no straight line—it’s a messy, winding road full of detours (and the occasional tumble).

A few weeks ago, I got a little too ambitious. 

Picture me, deciding it would be a great idea to practice pushing into a handstand from a headstand. Spoiler: it wasn’t. I fell (hard), and let’s just say my knee was not amused. It set me back a couple of weeks.

Fast forward to this week, and I’m thrilled to report that for the first time in 7 months, I hit pads with my boxing coach and even did some light sparring—punches only, no kicks, and a knee brace firmly in place. 

And WOW… the high I got from that session? Better than any street drug. 

The Highs, the Lows, and Everything in Between

But here’s the catch: chasing that high, whether it’s from boxing, running, or hitting a big life goal, is like trying to hold onto water—it slips through your fingers. 

Ram Dass (one of my all time favorite spiritual leaders) spoke to how, whether it’s psychedelics, exercise, food, or achievements, the constant chase of the high keeps us stuck in cycles of craving, creating suffering.

“This too shall,” pass applies to the highs as well as the lows.

Softening Into the Hard Stuff

Many years ago, I found peace around food cravings and emotional eating—a journey that’s now the foundation of the Cravings Cure Challenge (if you haven’t signed up yet, I invite you to join me for free here).

So my main work the last few years has been around connecting with peace in times of stillness.

My word of the year is soften, and trust me, it’s not about going easy on myself. 

It’s about finding peace in stillness, and embracing movement that doesn’t necessarily provide that “high” I get from intense training sessions.

And that is hard for me! 

I share this because maybe you’ve felt it too—the urge to push, to chase, to do more, even when your body or mind is crying out for rest. 

So, here’s my invitation: what would it look like for you to find peace in the pause? To let go of the “high” and just be with what is, no matter how uncomfortable that is?

Your Move

We’re all on this winding road, learning as we go. For me, it’s about balancing movement with stillness, action with intention, and leaning into the moments that challenge me most.

For you? Maybe it’s something else entirely. But whatever it is, I hope this story reminds you to honor your body, your mind, and your journey—messy, non-linear, and beautiful as it is.

Because true badassery? It’s not just about hitting the pads or sticking the handstand. 

It’s about showing up fully with curiosity and fierce compassion, and letting that be enough.

When Crisis Calls: Finding Peace in Purposeful Action

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I’m overwhelmed with emotion as I connect with my friends in Los Angeles and see the devastation being caused by the fires.

My heart breaks for all the animals in harm’s way… humans included (we are animals too!). 

If you are one of those people personally affected by the fires, my heart and prayers are with you.

In last week’s newsletter I wrote about the idea of “fierce compassion” (in case you missed it, I turned it into a blog post here), and I’m so glad I did, because given the current situation in L.A. I’m called to continue the conversation this week.

The Balance Between Being and Doing

I’ve talked a lot about being vs. doing over the last few years following going through severe burn-out, which landed me in Peru, working with Ayahuasca for 12 days. (I have yet to write a follow-up to my pre-aya post, because my experience was something very challenging to put into words.)

I returned with the understanding that my whole life, my focus has been on DOING everything I possibly can to help relieve the suffering of animals, what I’ve considered my life’s purpose since the age of seven.

I realized I was ignoring the importance of valuing my inherent worth as a human BEING, and it set me on the path of placing more of a focus on nurturing inner peace by making practices like meditation and yoga more of a priority.

That said, what I’ve come to understand, in my ever-evolving perspective, is that the most powerful way to be impactful, is to absolutely ACT (do), when action is called for, but to act with intention and present-moment awareness, and, to the best of our ability, to act from a place of inner-peace, grounded in pure compassion (for other people, animals, ourselves, and the planet).

And of course this is no small feat!

In order to act in such a way, we must get intentional with developing daily practices to cultivate inner-peace, and to move through the world intentionally, and with awareness.

Practicing Tonglen: Expanding Our Circle of Compassion

Ella and Rubia at Hogs & Kisses Farm Sanctuary - compassion

One of the most relevant practices I know of is an ancient form of meditation called Tonglen, that is all about helping us widen our circle of compassion and relieve the suffering of ourselves and others. 

Tonglen is a Tibetan word that translates to “sending and taking” and the practice involves visualizing taking in the pain of others with our in-breath and sending out whatever will benefit them on the out-breath

And this is of course somewhat effortless when we’re practicing on behalf of people and animals we love deeply… those in our current circle of compassion. And it gets more challenging as we start to practice on behalf of beings we feel neutral toward or dislike.

So instead of turning our attention away from suffering, Tonglen teaches us how to lean into it and use it as a way to connect with others and create a sense of peace even in the midst of suffering.

I love how Buddhist monk Pema Chodron teaches about Tonglen, in case you’re interested enough to check out this 10-minute video of hers.

Outward Action: How We Can Help

Of course, if you are able to take outward action that will benefit those in need right now, like donating to rescue and relief organizations, that is very much needed right now. Best Friends Animal Society, for example, is doing incredible work on the front lines.

The Bigger Picture: Crises Beyond the Fires

I’ll end with this…

Let’s keep in mind that although the fires in LA are getting tons of media attention (rightfully so), there are similar crises occurring all the time, all over the globe—some less visible but equally devastating. 

From the destruction of rainforests for animal agriculture to the suffering of billions of sentient beings in factory farms, the choices we makemaking a difference by choosing vegan meals every day have the power to either perpetuate harm or foster healing.

Everyday Acts of Fierce Compassion

We may not be able to stop a wildfire with our bare hands, but we can make a profound impact by starting with what’s on our plates.

Choosing vegan meals is one of the most powerful actions we can take to reduce deforestation, conserve water, lower greenhouse gas emissions, and spare countless animals from suffering. It’s an act of fierce compassion that ripples out to protect the earth, its inhabitants, and future generations.

So, as we reflect on the crises unfolding around us, let’s channel our sorrow and outrage into meaningful action

Let’s honor our connection to all life by choosing foods that nourish not just our bodies, but also our planet and its beings.

Together, through mindful choices, we can be part of the solution—every single day.

Fierce Compassion: Guide to Grieving, Celebrating, and Living Fully

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Before I talk about FIERCE COMPASSION, I want to wish you a Happy New Year from me and Fiona!

We were gifted a gorgeous New Year’s Day in Miami (don’t hate😜… come visit!) and I had the fortune of taking Fiona to Bark Beach with the guy I’m dating (I can hardly believe I’m dating, as I was NOT looking to do so anytime soon, but that’s a story for another day).

I also took some time to reach out to people I care about this week.

I was touching base with a client turned friend, and she mentioned that she typically finds the holiday season to be “performative and annoying,” as well as challenging when it comes to eating healthfully.

She also mentioned that this year she was feeling a heaviness in her heart… a sense of grieving from the election perhaps… that was weighing on her.

As I was contemplating what words I could offer to be helpful to her, I put some energy into checking in with how I was feeling, and came up with the following message that I thought could be helpful to her and many of you reading this right now…

As we step into 2025, I’m reflecting on the idea of living with fierce compassion.

It’s a guiding force for me—a way of being that holds space for the full spectrum of emotions that are all a part of this human experience. 

I feel deep sorrow for the unbearable suffering of animals and humans alike… 

AND

I feel immense joy for the love, beauty, and wonder that still exist in this world.

It’s not either/or. It’s both.

I can grieve AND celebrate.

I can feel pain AND embody gratitude.

I can acknowledge the darkness AND shine my light.

This is what fierce compassion looks like.

It’s about being awake to the suffering around us while staying grounded in hope, love, and purpose.

Every moment offers us an opportunity to raise our vibration and contribute to the relief of suffering—for ourselves, for others, and for the planet.

Every action we take has the potential to do good or harm, to heal or to hurt.

Hogs and kisses farm sanctuary Ella and RubiaSo, as we move through this new year together, let’s ask ourselves:

How can we cultivate peace within, so we can ripple that peace outward?

How can we dance through life with loving awareness and intention?

Let’s make 2025 a year of fierce compassion, grounded in kindness and connection.