“Roller coaster of emotions is an understatement. I would say though, it was one of the best weeks of my life…. “

Pre and Post PEAK WEEK

Roll back to the beginning of March 2016. This was just 3 weeks ago and I was on PEAK WEEK. This is a term used in the fitness competition world. This is the final week before you take the stage. My workout and diet was changing by the day. Nevertheless I was tired from all the changes, but my excitement from it all kept my adrenaline up and I was on the move. I continued to workout up until the day before the show. However I felt like a princess because Thursday and Friday I did all my pampering. Waxing, nails, massage, checked into the hotel and had my spray tan. I felt on top of the world, although 100% nervous and still kinda questioning what the heck I was doing, I felt confident and amazed at what I had done over the past 12 weeks. It was show time! Roller coaster of emotions is an understatement. I would say though, it was one of the best weeks of my life…. I took home 2 trophies that day, First place Novice and Second place Overall..

So what happens post competition…

Honestly the mental fuck doesn’t stop, if anything it might even increase, if you can believe that. The thought process that you have to maintain or want to constantly look like you did during peak week and while on stage is something that is frankly not realistic or achievable. If it is, not for long and is completly unsafe and unhealthy. Therefore, not for me. I already knew that going into this process but that HIGH that you have during peak week is well high and the day of competition is the only thing I can compare it to is when you do something for the first time and you love it. Something that you excel at. All the jitters the nervous feeling, the feeling of accomplishment and feeling proud of all your work. I’ve only ever experieneced this probably in comparrison to running my first marathon, maybe dating back to high school when I realized I had fallen in love for the first time,won a debate, completed my masters degree, got a raise / promotion at work. These are other things I could say are relatable experiences when you just feel ultimately at your BEST performance. But like I said, those of just moments in time, they don’t last forever and like all of that the after math happens.

When I woke up the day after it hadn’t sunk in what had happened yet. Trufully,

Photo Credit: Per Bernal